adam.

went to see ADAM THE MUSICAL in the afternoon. the actors studioi is so damn hard to find weyh. it was my first Malaysian musical! almost forgot that it was already the last show and if i dont catch it now theres no guarantee they'll run the show again, its not some big time broadway musical afterall. it wasn't all that damn good, but it made me cry. the music and lyrics was kinda juvenile, very easy to understand words. maybe they wanted it to be more accessible to the average Malaysians. they call it an uncommon love, not just another boy meet girl story. but i find the storyline very predictable, its every day happenings, especially in Malaysia, i know so many people who converted because of love. and the thingy about aids, i remember watching "gol and gincu"the series on 8tv and the story was exactly like ADAM la. but IT STILL MADE ME CRY. wth man, im very weak at holding back my tears when i comes to all this shit. considering the fact that it made me emo for the following 2-3 hours after the show ended, i will give it a thumbs up.

it made me think alot. questions that i've always been asking for answers but never succeed in finding em and then i just throw em to the back of my mind.

"how does a person know that he/she is the one?"

and.

i realized something dah. the time you spend with someone really affects the way you feel about them. and. and, and. when its there, its gonna be there until you get crushed and be told that you cant have it. well yeah, no one understands what the hell im crapping. in fact im not quite sure i understand too.

it was a good day. meeting up with him and all. we have never hung out before. texted for 3 years but was never ever in each others' daily social circle before. well thats when people realize what they always assume bout people is all wronggg. you thought you knew. but theres so much more to it that was kept away from you. it was awkward, very fucking awkward. i am such a talker. but i get so damn little positive response from him. i keep forcing myself to talk more so that we'd not get caught in some silent moment. lol? i dont think imma do it again?

and i got 2 new flats! rm99 for 2! happyhappyhappyy.

gilbert is back! missed him! (if you're reading, its totally sincere! xD)

oh, im not lesbian.

i thought i was. i wanted to be one too, but i cant be what im not right.

so right now, i'll just settle with being straight but uninterested in boys. HAHAHA.