about my spm results! =)

mood : not too much of adrenaline, kinda gloomy cos of the sore throat i got from the 2 hours of kboxing, maybe a little emo.

song : no air, glee version. awesome. rachel berry is great.

okay results was okay, was VERY disappointed when the 26 straight As did not include me. but i didn't cry, crying over what is done is totally not my thing. cherrie and sc cried though, sakit hati seeing them cry. when its time to collect our results from sulaiman, i was just crazy anxious to know which subject frickin scored a B or even worse. waited for quite a while cos leman was just being+ a bitch slowly giving the slips out.

6 A+, 2 A, 1 A-, a B+.

as for the FRICKEN B that ruined my mood for the whole morning, it was for chinese! SHOCKING! i've always considered chinese to be one of my strongest subjects, always felt confident about my chinese, the chinese essays i've written either won me awards or scored me A1s in tests. as for the B, i totally blame the quota system, if there is one. or maybe it was paper2.. chinese literature and knowlegde. i've always counted on my essays so much. GAWD im disappointed! CHINESE?! ugh. and then i found out there are so many of my friends that are in the same situation, straight As except for chinese. jeremy, suetchui..

I AM DISAPPOINTED OMFG.

but i am kinda happy i got 6 A pluses! A+ for physics ! all the sleepless nights reading physics is totally worth it. after spending the entire form4 not knowing anything about physics, (i cheated all the way) and working so hard during form5, it totally paid off! all the colourful post-it notes in my physics revision books saved me!

A+ for sejarah! haha azizah was so proud of me! happyhappyhappy. well actually i did not manage to memorise all the facts, but i did an analysis on all the state's trials papers and cross-analyse them with the exercises and spot questions we do in school, and i produced a list of topics that have a high probabilty to come out for spm. and all the essay questions was the my list! so i'd say that i studied smart, but well there is quite a risk, i didnt have the time so i counted on that list and only studied the few topics that falls into my lists, and it saved me =D im grateful.

got an A- for malay! quite happy too! considering the fact that i havent been going for bm tuitions since the beginning of form4, im really thankful to sulaiman! hes a great teacher! i used the methods he taught us and nothing else. the juniors that got him for their malay teacher should really be thankful! and stop sending in complaints about him!

gce o lvls, 1A. happy.

oh yeah, and seriously citarasa sucks bad. whats with the BAD ENGLISH?! editor's note?! sucks!

about friends.

there is the type of friends that come and go, the type that have been around for a long long time but is never a bother for you to talk to them, the type that clicks with you right away at your first rendezvous. and theres the type that you'd keep forever, no matter how far you are apart, you will still find a way into catching up and spilling your thoughts and feelings to him/her. those are the friends you'd trust.

林文浩!

it has been 10 years! thanks for letting me be a part of your past and lets hope we'll be in each other's futures! sometimes we drift apart but we always find our way back to each other and i'm grateful to have such a great friend. you are always so true! you once said you have no pride and dignity when we're talking because i know everything about you. well THATS NOT TRUE! there was once when i was shut outside that circle of trust, i think thats when you lost trust in me, and im very sorry if i did something bitchy in the past that drifted our friendship apart. now that we're both more matured in handling emotions, i'll always keep my promises to you! thanks for sharing stuff with me that you'd only share with me, thanks for keeping me updated all the time, thanks for making me feel more superior than your other good friends.

actually,

i dont usually remember stuff you tell me that are meant to be secrets. so if you stop mentioning it, it'll stay a secret forever cause i'll never be able to recall unless you reminded me. HAHA, so i guess thats my promise to you.

hugs! and happy 18th birthday! it was an awesome 10 years.

about blogging.

okay so today,

we finally named our okusanno, momster wanted to give it a japanese name so we both agreed with chibi at some point. SERIOUSLY, i just agreed with my mum to friggin name a machine chibi. (my alter ego LYN, the green twin from the previous blog is currently rolling her eyes)

i wanted to look up all my previous blogs, suddenly feel very nostalgic.

i started my first blog when i was 11, it was a tripod free website thingy that me and xt and some other girls from class had that made us cool at that time. i remember xt's site was blue and it was bout harry potter. HAHA. crazy dumb. the coolest thing is hers was linked to tom felton's site! of course i taught her how to type the html for the link lah, webhosting sites werent as developed and convenient to use as the ones we have now. tom felton is draco malfoy and hes the baddie that we all liked! i used to spend hours reading a tutorial on html just to make my site looked cooler =D i had to read the tutorials for goddsaake! youtube didnt exist (or maybe i hadnt discover it, or youtube was way too new), now whatever tutorials are just a click away on youtube. then i had a blogdrive! i think its was hazelmint.blogdrive.com and its about my crazy crush on somebody in primary school lol. i cant seem to find it anymore, i think i deleted it after a while out of embarrassment =X

i started with blogger in 2005, form one! i deleted that as well! (i dunno why i had no feelings towards my blogs back then)

i started sunriise.blogspot.com in 2006! which i kept until 2009 with a total of 457 blogposts, i actually wanted to reach 500 posts until i close that one down. but during trials and spm months i really stopped completely because i didnt have the passion and energy to blog anymore, very tiring, spm. and i got ripped off by rb, which at the moment was an issue for me cos i had this emotional instability and these crazy moodswings because i was so tired i guess. sunriise was the longest blog i kept, i used to mind alot whether my blog was interesting to read and i'd check the statcounter everyday to see how many people read my blog the day before. vain, i know. i once had 600 hits in 24 hours! well those were the glory days, towards the end not even 100 hits in a day. xD

2007, the blogging rage hit our school SABS, we had quite a few "celebrity bloggers", like joe, tm, caroline.. everyone in school reads them and their blogposts became topics in our conversations. (hey maybe im being way too hyperbolic but thats the way i remembered that era, even teachers checked our blogs) and i think i got the most hits during that time, LOL which i realised some time after, is because im related to joe and he sometimes features me in his posts as "the cousin". =D we even had this guild called "sabs bloggers", i think tm established that, he was kinda the head of the sabs blogosphere? LOL.

and then 2008 the celeb bloggers left school for college and the whole thing just fell apart. there were alotta lala blogs around.. bimbo blogs too. and the sabs blogosphere just really went off track, the people who read my blog still read my blog, the staple blogders, just no more excitement, no more to talk and nothing really inspiring to blog about.

well thats before rbonfire.blogspot.com launched lah obviously.

to be honest, i find them funny.

not smart-funny, but funny, still.

oh yeah so in 2008 i was going thru this weird emotional growing pain and i started a secret blog on desiblogz. i blogged anonymously and gave the people i blogged about aliases. lol crazy huh.

so yeah 2010, i started this one and hope to keep it, until i graduate from college?

JUSTIN BIEBER WTF.

what the hell is wrong with kids nowadays.

how exactly is justin bieber cute?

WHAT THE HECK MAN.

popular fair =D

i got a job!

我再也不是零工作经验的人了.

bahahaha. i think my chinese is much better than my english now. improved alot during the holidays. =D

awesome.

lol book fair part timer? kinda lame but whatevs man, i got a job! HAHAHA. well at least i'll be busy for a couple of weeks. NICE.

newspapers and shit?

question: how to write a referee's report?

DIE LA LIDDAT.

i woke up early today! 6.45am! haha since when waking up early is something to be proud of.

i used to think that newspaper smell like shit, or shit smell like newspaper. well i still think that, my mind automatically converts that particular smell into an image, either shit or newspaper whenever my sensory cells detects the odour in the air. literally, shit. well maybe i should say faeces, shit is wayy too general nowadays. anything, anyone, any situation can be referred to shit. i dont know how this happened, its just this phenomenon that has been going on since ..? maybe 5 years ago? anyways, thats not my point. well that day i tagged along when my dad and his brother drove to ubai to count the birds (hard to explain) and my uncle's car had a whole load of newspapers and the whole car smelled like it. i think im the only one that realised it. i had a hard time breathing, weird i know. so i started this thinking thing in my head. and discovered the cause of this weird smell-image thing that is happening to me. well, when i was younger we lived in this small terrace house and all of us shared one toilet. my parents use to read newspapers while they are shitting and the smell from the excretory products and the newspapers mixes and forms this smell that is imprinted in my cerebrum (haha biology wtf). anyone that had experiences living in a small terrace house knows that the toilet usually only has one little tiny window for air circulation and smells from whatever that was brought into or made in that toilet bowl stays there for a rather long time. so yeah, i think thats what caused my mind to always misidentify the smell of newspapers to be the smell of shit and vice versa.

yes, i am that bored.

im going job hunting later! finally decided to do something beneficial after 2 months of total a-zhai-ness. since college only starts in may for me. (adp! i kinda gave up hope for hku already. )

=(