too freeeee

listening to khalil's concert snippets. DROOLING OVER THE LAPTOP. khalil fong's voice is to die for.

sometimes i feel kinda inferior when im around the bunch of classmates from chinese high schools. DAMN their chinese is so good. jeng jeng jeng. proof : super good chinese.

aish. so freeeeee,

sem2 started!

back in inti.

not quite happy.

feeling rather empty.

the feeling of not having any assignments and discussions and meetings frighten me. super uneasy! because the first day i got back, km and jou rushed to adv inti's meeting right after dinner, today hanjia and the gang ditched us to dinner with their stact club seniors to mengampu abit (assumption la, lol), eexuen rushed back to get a flu pill for me and rushed to street party's commitee meeting. (thank you eexuen darling you are the best!) ADOI. then i ended up talking and gossiping with simba and ferng.

i had to drop chemistry and history this sem because of the bitchy clashes. SADD! cos i was actually quite looking forward to u.s history! altho they keep telling me how strict dr borges is at marking papers and how difficult it is to score for history. hmm, still havent get over the fact that my perfect no-morning-classes timetable has been screwed up.

had to take physics and world religion instead.

AND THERE GOES MY PERFECT TIMETABLE.

8AM CLASSES EVERY SINGLE DAY except wednesday omfg.

world religion, im excited.

physics, nooooo, i was trying to avoid taking calculus2 and physics together in a semester. because, im not very strong at either the subjects. AND, I FRIGGIN GOT A B- FOR CALCULUS ONE! how the hell am i gonna cope with physics this sem?! OMG.

but i guess i just have to.

and i got chairperson for aup club (yes yes thank you im thrilled), but i think im gonna go crazy stressed like before IU NIGHT last year lol.

ANYWAYS, THATS NOT A PROBLEM BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I WANT.

camaderie night coming right upp.

;D cant wait to work with them again! very supportive and close-knit bunch!

just thinking, and typing. and not reading

redang was great.

sem break was great.

new semester resolutions:

1. study harder! 3.5 and above!
2. ensure aup club's awesomeness and exclusiveness. (promise to self : once you get back to inti you will do crazy tonnes of research and call for a meeting some time in the first week)
3. studyy hardderrrr. spend more time in the library!
4. sleep late at night, not early in the morning.
5. no supper! super fat.
6. STUDYY HARDER!
7. spend more time at cae and upo and do alot of research on universities
8. study!!!!! without snacking!
9. fit into old clothes at the end of the semester. (hahahaha. yeah but its important.)
10. practice HEALTHY LIVING HABITS!!
11. EAT WELL!
    
12. sleep sleep is very important! dont stay up late anymore!

cal1 finals.

note to self:

its gonna be fine, i know its already almost impossible for me to get an a, but at least try! if you get a B+ its gonna be alright, you know your english marks will balance up yout gpa, it'll end up around 3.33-3.5 and thats totally alright. just be extra careful later! im gonna be finee!

K BB.

i have 5 minutes to blog. okay here goes.

i feel like, college and highschool is so fucking different can? i hear stories from my friends who are doing form6, and i totally whatthefucked, i thought all those lil girl drama ended in form3. seriously, who CRIES when someone teases you? how old is she? some preschooler? in form six summore? omfg she better go kill herself.

moving on,

emo people should kill emself too, since they are just so damn miserable. OR, they can just stay in their coves and not spread their emo-ness. really dulan with emo people who spreads emo-ness. dont join next time k, since you're so damn angry with the world and you wanna go back so badly, why did you come in the first place?

DAMN IM STARVINGGGGG.

how many years has it been? NO DONT COUNT.

went to klia for dinner! ;DD

wanted to go send mayjean off to melb in the afternoon, but since anju and gang decided not to go, i cancelled on may too. sorry may!

anyways, i was walking and suddenly this boy walking past called out my name. lol? and i blurted, who are you? LOL. it was clement! clement ho! my junior in primary school! we used to be in the same choral speaking team, and he could make all these funny sound effects. he was really a mischievous piece of art. but seeing him now.. he has matured. (voice in head: of course he has, how many years ago was primary school. lol) he was flying off to melbourne as well. trinity as well. he din tell me he was at trinity, i found out a few moments ago by stalking his fb. aussies real good, i get why malaysian parents like sending their kids there, its near, the weathers good, theres like loads of asian people. my mum actually asked me whether i wanted to go to aussie, no, i think she wanted me to go to aussie quite badly she was practically endorsing it, haha. australia is a good place! i love it there! its just that i had this desire to go to some place farr and be away from home for some time, to experience life, to start out anew. i cant do that in aussie, i have family there, my parents will definitely fly over like every 6 months to come see me. no, im not saying i wanna pull out from my life here completely.. its just that here, we already have labels. and those labels are extra adhesive.

its not gonna be easy to start out afresh either.

im foreseeing my first few weeks in the states.

my label will be : international student, transferred degree, probably from china.

hahah xD

aite im crapping.

stayed up all night yesterday.

calculus-ed, watched a horror movie, and mahjong-ed from 8pm til 7am.

lifes good!

july. the transition to emo months. are you guys ready?

glee is like super good. only watched episode 22 after a month of delay. i bought volume2 and showstoppers sekali gus, so now im damn broke. and i just just the last piece of ten ringgit note in my purse to buy a pokka green tea box. daymmn. emo weekend. its already monday and im still kinda emo, esp at times like these, alone in a pitch dark room. listening to emo glee covers. fave songs on showstoppers : a house is not a home/ one less bell to answer. DAMN so damn emo can, may i repeat that april rhodes' voice is like fucking amazing. so damn versatile can! 100% broadway baby! i just read the commentary on 'home', the episode where kurt wanted to renovate his room to welcome finn, and then he sings cos finn yells at him for being such a kpc. and when april sleeps over at will's. and they sang in different rooms. walao! the commentary said it was the most emotional episode in the entire season one, and i agree! and even 'journey', the last episode wasnt as emotional. tho i cried while watching 'journey', 'home' portrayed deeper emotions, the feeling of loneliness, and hope, the feeling of waiting for something important to happen and the disappointment when it doesnt go as you expected. all of us have gone thru this feeling, but not alot of people can tell you what does it really feel like, because there isnt a word to fully describe the emo-ness. but this episode did it, i felt. whereas 'journey'has a more straight forward feeling to it, there wasnt too much of twists and turns.

its july again.

i used to say july/august/ september are break up months. i still believe in it. maybe its because of the weather, the transition to rainy days. emo-ess kicks in very easily during these few months.

i dont know why i doubted our friendship, i wasnt thinking straight. how could the thought of it came across my mind? its not gonna happen again, i love you ze! ahah. never heard of long distance friendship. because the friends who drift apart when they are physically apart arent true friends, to me. i misssss you guys so much! lumahao why dont i see you online! frickin miss you can!

bert,

its fine. we're here.