family to me.

have been thinking for a bit lately. i keep trying to block out the thought of how little time i have left in inti, but i just cant pretend like the countdown is not happening. life is pretty awesome, im busier than ever, ADV race is just around the corner and i trying to get everyone to do their jobs (well at least in my program team where i have control over, other departments i dont wanna bother too much cos i know i'll get pissed off), trying to lighten things up but doing everything thr fun way. studying for tests hasnt been so esay before, i have 4 merely reading subjects and after science and maths changed me thoroughly last 2 sems, i realized how much i loved reading subjects. maybe of all the things that happened around us, the bonds kinda got alot stronger. college is so much different than high school. i remember in high school, people dont share as much, they have reps to take care of. college is just different. we're telling each other every single detail, and i found this method of sharing helps the broke heart to heal so much faster.

and i wanna clarify,

that i am not weak. i dont know why i broke down in the ktv. i was just kinda overwhelmed. dont judge my capability based on my overflowing emotions, i am still me.

okay busy timeee.