EMO 2012.

sometimes in life we do dumb things, and right now, i am rethinking the dumb things i've done. i know they say the mistakes you did yesterday shaped the person you are today. its been 2 years, no, its been almost 3 years now. heard the house mate talking on the phone with her ji mui one day and she said something that sounds very very familiar, 'i dont miss him, because i dont love him anymore, but i miss the person i was when i was with him'. i like myself alot, the person i am now. 1 year in architecture school made me realize that i can do anything, literally. the things i can never picture myself doing, i can do now. thus, i have no fear for anything (maybe except being raped and killed) and i am very very prideful. reading my prof write on my grading sheet : 'you made me believe once again there are some people who are born to do this, real architecture'. when i got the grading sheet back i couldn't believe it, i at least read it for 10 times that day. and i cried. i cried because i know now what i am capable of when i put my mind to it, i know now theres no limits to my sky, i know because i am stronger. but there is a missing piece. i found myself stalking again (thanks to facebook timeline-- the real stalking device), i pulled the timeline down to 2009, there is only 1 status you posted :  EMO. that 3 letter word look so blunt and blatant now, now that i've announced myself as a person who look down on people who post emotional facebook status. but i know why, and i dont remember if you status then made any impact on me back then, but it definitely does now. every day i think whether you know i am very sorry for what i did, eventhough you told me over and over again you dont care anymore. 

下一个他,赶快出现吧.

if you feel what i think you feel about me, dont wait around anymore!