damni'msolonely.

i kinda want him back. like. hes the only one that will love me for who i am. but i fucked up because i was young and stupid and i thought there is going to be more to life than to commit to a stable relationship. and now hes happy and im bitter with all the thoughts of that lucky girl could've been me if i just held on to my shitty emotions longer. i dont have a big heart, i get jealous easily. i got him in the first place by showing my jealousy. i finally felt like i needed him because i was jealous of something he had with another girl when i was away at another country for vacation. my jealousy got us together but i let things slip away because things were getting stable. i know i was the kind of girl that cant stay away from drama, and when things became nice and peaceful i got bored. so yeah, that was me. it took me so long to realize that all a girl needs is a person to always be there. i let go of that person who is the only person in the world until now who would do that for me. and i am caught in a loop with a guy that will never love me back. ungrateful? yeah, i used to think its worth the chase, but i guess im getting too old for this shit. yes i will stay away. and thank you dearest you, for letting feel loved for a brief period of time, when i think about us, i think about the cute things we through and less of the times where i was being a bitch, and sorry i was a bitch. and thank you to you too, for breaking my heart over and over again, i will stay away.

i will stay away, from both of you.

way to go, eve, you always fuck everything up. wo hen lonely la tamade.