about the future.

its annoying not knowing what my future is like. and having opinions flooding in and messing up with my decision to take up architecture. luckily my dad is just extra super supportive. he kept telling me not to let other people's comments affect my decision. he knows its what i wanna do and he also understand that im feeling insecure. people keep saying that its a very tough course to take on, and the duration is very long. i was scared at first and started considering other courses but nothing appealed to me as much as architecture. its just great. i've made up my mind and im gonna go ahead with it. i trust my dad. and im trying to trust myself. afterall he suggested actuarial science to my 2nd bro and hes the one that secured a fairly paid job in an international firm a few months after his graduation and thats good, right? doing things the chinese way, study hard, work hard, secure a stable future. yeah. im chinese, very chinese.

the mom has been shouting at me alot for keep procrastinating. i havent got anything done. hku's application deadline ended a month ago! SHIT really frustrated. didnt apply then cos thought my parents wanted me to do maybe a few years locally before i go overseas. but now my mom is blaming me for not grabbing the chance blarlarblar. disappointed! sending in a late application. hoping for the best, preparing for the worst. AIH.

actually i dont mind doing locally. well maybe for a year or two..
went to inti subangjaya to get the infos for adp.. if i do my first year in inti, mom will get 20% sibling discount, and thats saving money right. saving money is good. and then after the first year i'll be in the u.s for 5 years. wth. so longggg.. 5 years without cny? i'll thinkkk again.

if hku miraculously accepts my appilcation, narrow chance though, my forecast results is just plain shitttyyyy. so i hope my actual results turn out good? argh im worried. mom said maybe i can do my degree in hk and then go to the u.s. for my masters. yeah i like the idea of that.

anyways.
i told my mom i wanna get into an ivy league school. HAHAHAHA.
my family was silent for somewhat a verrry long period.
what? i can dream, cant i?!